*charm so only people who know can read* I went to see Dr. Robinson again (ooc: that is if he's still around, jackie or hay, if hes not, let me know lol. thanks bunches) I can't believe that its almost been a year. my minds been elsewhere today*end charm* *charm so only alyssa & em can read* Its almost been a year. god DAMNIT. I swear to fucking god im losing it. im losing everything. I can't think straight. This has been on my mind all week. DAMNIT! I don't even remember yesterday. I dont know if its from stress or just because im thinking about this. DAMNIT! but what am i doing? Keeping it bottled up inside of me. again. i know i shouldn't be doing this and all, but i dont wanna go out to the whole fucking world and tell them. its all like 'boo hoo lets cry for katie cause of this, even though she deserves it, the little ex-pill popping whore.' DAMNIT. i hate this. i hate everything. DAMNIT!!! I can't think straight anymore. Im not in any fit state to finish my homework, I think im fucking losing it. *starts to cry* god DAMNIT! this isn't fair! and I Don't fucking deserve this, no matter how much i've fucked up my life! DAMNIT! fuck an egg. im making myself sick again. DAMNIT. *End charm* Im going to go. Caitlins starting to wonder about things. I dont know where im going. i think im just going to walk around.